I’ve been thinking about writing my testimony for some time now. Not because I want to necessarily but because I feel that my experience of spiritual darkness and spiritual light is a story I need to tell.
When it comes to the actual writing, however, I pretty much hate EVERY everything I write. I pray about it. I try to write it. I give up. Then the cycle starts again.
Sometimes I decide it is not worth doing and step away from it entirely. At other times I get ideas about how I might be able to make it work and start to feel like I can actually do it.
This week was an idea week.
The idea was that I could base the testimony around the dreams have influenced me the most – for better or for worse – and how sometimes that influence is supernatural in origin.
I trace the idea back to Fr. Chad Ripperger (who would probably not be impressed) and his wonderful book Dominion (affiliate link) – where explains how angels and demons communicate with each other and with us.
Both angels and demons, it seems, can put images into our minds. But only angels can illuminate our minds so that we understand the images we’ve been given.
The idea – that I could base the testimony around dreams – made sense because dreams have been so instrumental to my story. So I decided to look at the (very few) dreams I’d shared in this blog. And I found one from over a year ago that really got my attention.
Two things jumped out at me about that old dream, The first was that it was specifically about me telling my story. The second was that it also seemed to be about me accepting my authentic self, which I’ve been doing lately, in this blog and elsewhere, but was not doing then.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that this dream was supernatural guidance. But I do find it interesting. So I am going to try this approach to the ebook and see where it takes me.
PLEASE NOTE: I do NOT believe that dreams should be used to predict the future under any circumstances. Most dreams are not supernatural. Those that are can be received from God and his angels OR the demonic. That is why I feel we should never make a decision based purely on a dream and that our Catholic faith should always take precedence over any insights we may, or may not, have received through a dream.